The Spiritual Daddy

By Daddy Bob Allen

Daddy Bob Allen is a well known personality in the California Scene, having written “The Only Reason I Mention This,” a collection of his essays from the Leather Journal and a novel called “The Wings of Icarus.” This article originally appeared in The Leather Journal; publisher: Dave Rhodes.

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I have a spiritual side I'm not ashamed to show the world from time to time. Though, don't expect it to be Oral Roberts revisited. I said spiritual, not spacey. I was once invited to sit in on an informal and very interesting round table discussion. One of my pagan friends assured his group, some dozen or so fellow pagans, that I belonged there, even though my pursuit came under the guise of contrived violence. After all, we were, all of us, outcasts from the larger culture. Toward the end of the evening, the moderator went around the table and asked what pagan deities each of the guests personally embraced. Since there was no organized structure to this group, no rules to adhere to in order to belong, most of the people had cherry picked gods and goddesses from several different epochs and cultures: the ancient Druids, the East Indian pantheon was popular, not to mention the ancient Egyptians, just to name a few.

I really didn't know what I was going to say when my turn came; I was definitely out of my league. When the moderator finally smiled at me, I suddenly realized who I was. "I haven't really embraced any pagan deities. I'm lucky if I get the car started in the morning. The deities I've embraced are the ones inside of me, the gods and goddesses I am in touch with in order to write, play SM and live effectively. I know my male, I know my female, and I especially know my little boy. Then there are my emotions. I have to be in touch with all of them: love, hate, rage, compassion, greed, generosity, lust, tenderness - this is just a small representative slice of the range these are the ladies and gentlemen of the pantheon. And as long as they all hold hands in reasonable balance there are no 'good' emotions and 'bad' emotions. They all belong; they all have a function there to perform. And since I have accepted each one totally, without a value judgment, I do not need a projection outside myself with a name to make each one real to me:'

Twelve jaws dropped. One of the ladies put it into words. She grumbled, "We've been upstaged.

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